Are we starting afresh?
Some tips and some unhinged sharing of what happened when my letters were missing.
Dear readers,
I feel like I am that ex of yours who reappears in your DMs after ghosting you for months. I am sorry for not writing these letters in the last two months. I didn’t mean to ghost you. I was just struggling with a lot.
Isn’t this what every ex says? But I truly was. (This is what they say too. Maybe we gotta believe them afterall. :-P) And I thought of writing the newsletter but on many occasions, I wondered if I really had something to say.
There were many moments in the last two months where I felt like I was cursed.
Everything was going fine, and I had really promised the Universe that I would leave the shame of doing unconventional work behind, and step up to do more, serve more, help clients achieve more, facilitate them to be aware of themselves and manifest better things in life.
It started with the first accident I got into in September. My entire immediate family was in the car as we traveled to Coorg. No one was harmed except the car. The next was in Masai Mara, Kenya in October. I hadn’t slept for a few nights, and I was consistently worried if I should travel or not. Finally, I felt I must travel, and I booked a flight in the morning for the evening. As I landed and traveled to Masai Mara, the car took a wrong turn, overturned and we met with the biggest crash. Doors were jammed. There was blood everywhere. The driver was fine. We had some cuts and bruises. Thankfully, we came out alive as we walked out through the window of the car and strangers helped us get to the nearest hospital. I got about 7 stitches on my face - the doctors did the best they could in the emergency and with limited amenities they had there in the village. We received a lot of care and comfort from the people at Emaiyan Luxury Camp.
We came back to India as soon as we could. My stitches got infected owing to all the covering required during these long flights and road travels. I lived in Guwahati with my parents in the last couple of months. I refused to get my face re-stitched for aesthetic purpose as advised by the doctors. I figured I would let the wound heal on its own instead of going under the knife only for aesthetics and decide later to see if I need plastic surgery.
Later in December, Dad had to be hospitalized as he lost consciousness. Thankfully, he got discharged and is now recovering well.
A lot of other things were difficult during these times at the emotional level but for a change, I am writing about the physical difficulties now.
I am back to Bangalore now. As I look back, I don’t know how I even managed to survive these last two months. In between all of this, I continued working with my coaching clients and facilitated them really well. I did take classes too and my students were deeply grateful. Happy work-life, happy me!
I was completely moved by how sweet my Instagram community was as I shared regular updates. Each and every message touched my heart. The care, the concern, the love. I must have done something good in life to receive this much from people. And that makes me feel, maybe, just maybe, I am not cursed. Maybe I am blessed.
Received some gifts from clients and friends that cheered me up. I did the annual Gratitude Project which I do every year before New Year’s Eve. Came up with more prompts and gratitude exercises for the participants.
I got an award from my coach for launching, continuing and delivering results in my High-Energy Coaching Program - What IEEFF? Inner Energy-work for Emotional and Financial Freedom. I delivered a kick-ass impromptu interview. I am eager to share the recording soon.
If I have to leave you with some thoughts, here they are-
Never stop looking for the silver lining. Always look for things to be grateful for. This one practice, as it becomes a habit, will never let you down. It helps you recover with more ease and doesn’t let you break down mentally at times of adversity. I feel grateful that a lot of things could have gone worse, but they didn’t. It further helped when people said, ‘you were saved from something worse’.
If you are traveling to Masai Mara, you only travel in a Land Cruiser, or you don’t travel at all. Only minutes before the accident, we were complaining to the travel agency, Hawi Travels, that the car was not good and needed to be changed for our return trip. It was a 5-hours long trip one-way. We also realized we were in a wrong route and was just about to confront the driver when the crash happened.
Let your pain teach you something. And don’t forget the lesson once your pain goes away. I do feel changed in many things in life, especially when it comes to knowing what you truly desire versus what you think you desire because of societal pressure. These thoughts would pervade in every part of my life - family, friendships, relationships, business, and more. It’s difficult to stick to the lessons and not let shallow thoughts rule my emotions and decisions again in this era of hyper social media usage, but I intend to grow more as a person and let there be more depth in my choices.
I wish you all a happy new year. May this new year be filled with love and blissful joy. May this new year bring more ease and abundance. May you shine in and out.
And if you happen to seek inner peace, inner wisdom and inner work, may no doubt, fear or adversity stop you.
Didn't know about this at all,
hope you are okay now.
Happy to see you started writing again,
it's always inspiring to read your thoughts.
Happy New Year,
wishing you a year full of joy, health, and creativity!